In the previous post I talked about finding my home in Jesus. What I mean by that is instead of a physical building with a bed, kitchen, place to hang my towel, and a mailbox associated with my name to go back to I feel rested, secure, belonging, and reassurance in His ultimate presence in my life any place in the world that I am. Nothing is bad with having a bed, kitchen, place to hang towels and mailboxes. I want that one day. But right now, I don't and I am okay with that. I am content. Which is a beautiful thing that I recommend to everyone! :)
Coming back to Australia I feel like an adult. I can make my own choices. Eat my own food. Go to bed when I want. Hang out with who I want. And spend money the way I want.
Earlier this year (before my birthday) I realised that I didn't want to grow up. I didn't want to have these responsibilities because responsibilities have consequences. Consequences that are sometimes good, other times they are not. But then God started to show me how much fun being an adult could be!
It's HIM that I can make choices with, HIM that I can get advice from, HIM that I can trust will guide me to places that won't hurt me! But He knows that I need to talk things out sometimes so He ALSO gives me PEAPLE that I can trust with helping me in choices or give me advice. But He gives me the responsibility to ask for it from those people, He doesn't force me.
I like to be in control. Growing up that didn't happen! (which I'm thankful now..) I always felt like life was to big to handle and that made me mad. Now, I know life is too big for me to handle but I know that Jesus handles it. Which is so. very. very. relieving. Since I can let go of control of the huge life issues I can focus on things that ARE in my control like eating, health, budgeting, relationships, the bed that I've been given, find a church/family I can be involved with and connecting with people who support me.
I am thankful for my life.
I am thankful for the ministry that I doing.
I am thankful for Australia.
I am thankful for my family.
I am thankful for my friends.
I am thankful for the journey God has taken me on.
I am thankful for choices.
I am thankful for advice.
I am thankful for my nieces and nephews.
I am thankful for mistakes.
I am thankful for airplane food.
I am thankful for the internet.
I am thankful for emotions.
I am thankful for rain.
I am thankful for tea.
I am thankful for adulthood.
